My Grandfather’s Message About Seeking Approval

Ah, when inspiration strikes, go with it, right? As I was walking the other day, I suddenly remembered a conversation that occurred a few weeks ago when my grandfather showed up.
Now, this is my grandfather from my mom's side who passed away when I was 11 or 12.
Anyway, every now and again, he'll pop up in my awareness. 

And this was happening as I was contemplating approval. 

Some sources say that 80% of what drives us, everything that we do, is driven by an underlying current of seeking approval.

So approval from whom?

One of the most common things I have heard clients say over the years at some point of their transformational journey is:

I just want to feel free to be me.  I want to feel safe to be who I am.

It was amazing. Sometimes when you're doing healing work, maybe you've experienced this as well, and maybe this is new to you. But wherever you are, I'm sure you can remember, or have experienced that certain words will really, really trigger certain emotional responses within you.

Like even hearing the word money… I mean, that will stir up a whole lot of stuff: good, bad, ugly, everything in between, right? 

And in case you’ve grown up with different languages, and you speak different languages, then you'll know that there are different meanings assigned to different words in different languages. 

So when my Dutch grandfather showed up, it dawned on me that he had never really approved of some of the actions of my mum until she started to be successful, according to his definitions, and his criteria.
And up until that time, because he didn't approve of some of the choices my mum had made, that was also passed on to the grandchildren, including me. 

I always felt that when we would go and see my grandparents, that my grandfather would avoid us as he usually wasn’t there when we arrived. I loved my grandmother. And she loved me, and we loved spending time together. But my grandfather, I really rarely saw him. And I know that some of my other cousins spent a lot more time with him. 

So what occurred to me was that in Dutch, the word approval is ‘goedkeuring’, and that literally translates to ‘good examination’. Just like you go and have a medical examination. This is a good examination. 

Wow, you know how you can have one of these moments where something just suddenly lands and you get this aha, the light bulbs go off?

I realized that I had somewhere taken on my grandfather's disapproval. So not having given me the pass on the examination of being good according to his criteria. And hence feeling rejected.

And as he was a self-made multimillionaire and I had stories running of him saying to my mom that it was too bad that she was born in a female body, because otherwise she would have been great in the business.

You know, business was men's domain and money was men's domain. And so that was all passed down genetically. Fascinating, right? 

So here I was walking in the bushlands when my grandfather showed up. And when I had this awareness of this word, and the meaning, he then said to me:

‘It was never never true. And you don't need my approval to be you.’

So there was some forgiveness there as I had a beautiful soul-to-soul chat with him. And feeling the energy shift within me is really quite remarkable.

So where in your life I wonder, might seeking approval be playing out?

This is stuff, as you probably know, that happens under the surface, and it's often held  and stored in deep, unconscious levels. Like the proverbial iceberg...

• So maybe have a think about where are you fully being you?  
• With whom do you feel safe to really be you? 
• Where are you hiding out or dimming your light or dumbing down your brilliance when you're around certain people or perhaps in certain situations? 

I'm just curious to know how this may have been playing out in your life…

You are an infinite BEing of divine light in this amazing human body. 

You don't need anyone to approve of who you are. 

You're amazing as you are. 

And yet the cultural conditioning and the ancestral coding and programming and all the agreements based on fear that have been passed down for so many generations…

• And all the stuff that's floating around in the collective will have had you question whether you can be accepted as you are. 
• Whether you can be loved for who you are.
• And where have you possibly even be afraid of speaking up for what it is that you really want, what you really desire, out of fear of upsetting others or people disapproving. 

And so you go into trying to please everybody, keeping everybody happy, and thereby settling for less than what you deserve and what you desire. 

And what each and every one of us deserves is to be fully supported with expressing our brilliance in the world, expressing our gifts and talents.

Getting that up in your head is one thing.  Letting that be felt within the body… embodying this truth… that’s where the ‘work’ is at. 

You know, whether anybody else approves or disapproves?

• Can you allow yourself to be you? 
• Do you even know what that feels or looks like? 

I know for myself over the last few months, I've been doing a lot of deep healing work and clearing and deconditioning.  I’ve been diving into Quantum Human Design™ and this has been so much fun for me as it’s providing me with this amazing map that gives me really quick access to seeing where energy may have been trapped, where I may have been living out the low frequency expression of my gifts and talents, where I've picked up stuff, you know.

And also where energy is likely to be held that’s been passed down through the generations. And there's so much more to all of this. And then being able to see that for others too. 

So as I've been practicing and implementing and clearing the stuff and deconditioning all those limitations at yet a whole other level, there comes a point where you have to clear this stuff which has been playing out in the duality game on this planet. 

And the more that this is cleared and released, there comes a point where all of a sudden, it's like you are light-lifted out of the matrix that was functioning on this planet for so long with all the agreements that were created in fear that have kept us judging.

Anytime that you judge, you're creating separation. It's fear driven.

And when any of that stuff is playing out and it's been held in your body and the unconscious, then clearing this stuff out takes dedication.  And sometimes you need an experience like I had the other day… where my grandfather just showed up and I suddenly had this awareness of myself as a young girl who had been trying to gain the approval of my grandfather.

Not just for myself… it started in an attempt to help my mom feel better about herself and recognise and know her value and her worth and that she didn't need her father's approval. 

A lot of her life was lived trying to get that approval. So who knows how many years that's been influencing what I have, or have not allowed myself to be and do? 

With that cleared, it’s amazing how much more energy is now available to be infused into creating what lights me up!

I invite you to contemplate where you may have been seeking approval… and what becomes possible when you allow yourself to be light-lifted out of that. To go quantum level jumping.

And if any of this resonates with you, then you’re going to love the 40 Day Quantum Abundance Reset.

Curious if that’s for you? Check out 3 Clues That You Need An Abundance Reset.

Many joyful blessings,
Tina